year 12 hoodie

year 12 hoodie smexy

hello
so oh my god
i really want to start
a blog. However i have one
small problem, i am the most boring
unadventurous person you will ever meet
implying someone is actually reading this.
To that one person i must say
i love you i really do. I don't know where
this need for a blog came from, i guess its wanting
to be liked but everyone wants that don't they?

and when i posted this idea on a site they said
i'm lame and need to get a life, and not start some
lame blog. Well little do they know they inspired me even
more. So if you're actually reading this and have any ideas
on what this blog could be about dont hesitate to let me know.
ill give you lollies?
cyber lollies?
do they even exist?
okay see fail, i cant even stay on topic,
so hello/goodbye this one person, feel free
to insult me and this horrible blog
im trying to maintain
that is all thank you <3

Swimming and other events yay

hahaah
oh yes the swimming carnival
well that was a real fail.
We ended up getting in loads amount
of trouble
by we i mean
Nicole (my best friend)
Sarah and Tessa
and me of coarse ahaahah.
So i may as well explain what happend now
since ive decided to blog about it.
But it kind of sucks nobody reads this so whats the point?
oh wells
im going to tell myself anyways.
So we had fake blood and we were putting it on our
clothes and it went all over the bathrooms
and it was considered vandalism....
so we got in massive trouble for that.
Today was my first punishment out of the way
The red cross door knock. That was fun for a punishment
lol
i feel really sick
i have a really bad headache.... sigh
and i need to study so bad i have like a billion sacs
here are some photos yay

swimming carnival tommorow
and since im year 12 we get to dress
up this is me attempting to be a murderer
fail ahahah

My Dad's Car <3
my street <3



oh by the way this is from the Melbourne Storms yesturday 6/3/10
they were hectic, and i thought id upload some photos just to emphasise
how epic/bad it was.

a girl stereotype.....well more like boy but whatever

location: melbourne Australia
mood: sad/happy
music: It had to be you - Motion City soundtrack



so i suppose
you expect me to talk about my boyfriend
here....well i kind of am arent i? fail
anyways

Im sick of boys their really hypocritical
their all oh i dont like girls who are all
clingy. Well of coarse they are going to be
clingy if you dont talk to them for like 2
days and expect it to all be okay.

Thats crap who does that?
BOYS stupid boys, i hate living
wondering what he'll think if i do
this or do that. Fuck off il flirt as much
as i want to ill not call you, ill not txt
you see how you like it, i bet youll die inside
like i am ....-sigh-
so my conclusion boys are stupid and deserve to die
in a very long,deep black hole.

this is my little rant because i am super
annoyed at my boyfriend at the moment.
He's at Future music festival i hope it floods
and they all get wet or even better it gets cancelled
hah take that.

anyways its a Gorgeous sunday morning,9:27am
and its foggy and raining outside, quite romantic
makes me more depressed. God i am such a whingey
person i hate this go die boys go die.



Love

Love hurts
love is something you cant explain
love is something you cant help
love love was designed to be mean
love is just not for me
im sorry

Wild At Heart

location: melbourne Australia

mood: cranky

music: to be continued...set your goals

Mention love and suddenly everything starts thinking, really thinking, about who they are, what they are and how they are, it's like love is a force that defines us, constructs the insides of our bodies, it is the bones and muscles and tissue and maybe love isn't an emotion, or a product of the media or a chemical in our bodies, but an animal instinct, a motivation, and I don't mean love as in sex, I don't mean love as in needing someone I mean love as in wanting someone because we need every one and everything, we cannot choose what we need but with want, we have a choice. Love is the tug on your insides that tugs every animals insides. the drive, the motivation, the want, the want, the want...to just be close to someone, to wrap yourself up in their thoughts and mistakes and fall asleep.

I've been asking everyone what it means, because I've been avoiding asking myself but it just is, with or without any analyzing and poking and pordding, it is even if no one ever defined it , it would still be. It is eternal, and it changes and evolves and grows and dies, it is an animal within itself, burrowing inside of us.

tuck it in, fall asleep.

this is not written by me but i found it
on someones blog called
Wild At heart
and it pretty much defines how i feel at the moment

apart from the fear which is eating me alive currently <3

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